I do not know when I became so concerned with grades. When did my As become miracles and all-nighters become routine. It can get so discouraging to see people surrounding you with set goals and declared majors, good study habits, planned careers, ambitions.. There are so many at UCLA. I don't know how I got engulfed in this massive ocean of students who all seem to be on their way to somewhere. And I used to be fine with it. I had always put everything before studies.. for me, it didn't seem that important in the grand scheme of things.
And now, I want to excel academically for once. I don't want to settle for studying only the night before and walking out of a final with my head down. I don't want my parents to be more concerned than ever about my diminishing GPA. I want to secure.. something.
But I'm always stuck playing catch-up.
and there's also so many around you who have no idea what they're doing with their studies either, take me for example. but as much as we may not know where are studies are going to lead us, we know someone who does. And if we study hard with the trust that He'll ultimately lead us, then we have something to study for even if it seems at the moment that we dont.
ReplyDeleteso DO do you best and excel academically. but not for your parents or for yourself. cuz then you'll burn out and there'll be no joy.
"There's no joy in studying unless you do it for His glory!" (words from my recomm leaders)
do work~!
"My son, beware of anything beyond these. Of making many books there is no end, and much study is a weariness of the flesh."
ReplyDelete[Ecclesiastes 12:12]
don't study. that's coming from the wisest man to ever live. :)
muahahaha jk
dang i just got pwned by the scripture...X_x
ReplyDeletehahahahaha
.... and I thought I was alone.
ReplyDeleteIt's so hard to watch people excel academically and see yourself not running alongside that. But someone drilled into my head that its not what you do academically that will get you the grades; It's what God does through you. I know all too well what it is like to take that load and try to accomplish it all by yourself .. at once. & I know what it is like to be engulfed in this world of grades. But remember why we're here as students. It's not the grades that ultimately matter (no matter how much we're in denial). I definitely don't think its wrong to want to excel academically, but I know from experience that there's a fine line between wanting to excel and wanting to excel for yourself and that number we call GPA.
Keep your head up, Sarah. I know you can definitely get through that book :) Calvin told me to just look up and it actually helps :) hahaha I literally looked up, took some time to think and read the word, and God will definitely take care of you. and even if he doesn't, ... trust him :) He'll make all of this worthwhile.
(Now that I read over what I wrote really fast, I have no idea if this is relevant but this is the first thing that came up to mind after I finished reading your entry. sorry if it makes no sense whatsoever. you can disregard it too hahaha)